Fursona Shiro Reff Sheet_Altared Design

Shiro was my first real fursona and she shall remain as it. i though i wanted a different one when i made eleco, but she too soft. and after whats happened. it really opened my eyes. i am who i am. and if i care too much. thats not my problem. because i could DIE to have a friend like myself. and in my own sense i am my own friend. I JGW, born under the sign of the gemini, and two people. i could not live without my other half. and i would not kill my other half. im glad i finally see that. i used to curse the fact that i always seemed to be fighting with myself, on everything, yeah i know eveyone has 2 sides to them. but...my 'two sides' rather then being two halves of a whole are '2 wholes' themselves. that may sound odd to you but it makes perfect sense to me. and both of them. are me.

and well since i tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, i added a few hearts to her deign, i make her leg designs smaller to be more like med hand gloves then long gloves like there were before. and since gainging this new knowlage abuot myself, its made me feel more complete and that much closer to fuller undertstading myself (if thats even possible XD ) that i am a 'We' person. rather then being all bout 'me'. and that makes me happy knowing that. i couldnt see it before. a former friend that im trying to be back in touch with said 'some poeple just aint ment to be alone, and there nothing wrong with that' and to be honest...ive always felt like that...that i need someone. growing up i had my dad, to was also my mom to me. while my mom worked all the time. but when i became old enuogh, in my preteens to early teens, my dad got a full time job and was away mostly until 7pm and would leave at 5-6am, it was around this time i felt like i needed my mom, her attention, her approval, but having 2 younger siblings i never got unless she was screaming at me or hitting me, telling me how much of a screw up i was JUST like ma daddy. ooooo i wantned to punch her in the face soo badly this one time....all she did was talk bad about him, to me, i even told her thats not my busniess, and to please stop but she told me to shut up and what i though didnt matter. so yeah....any kind of 'love' a child could have to its mother was easily tossed out the window. it suprises me how i can so eaily say that...i dont love her. i 'tolorate' her because i want to see my dad and my little sister, my little brother, i love them, and im scared she gunna really hurt them like she did with me. not really on the outside. on the inside is what im worried about, liliannas such a smart and bright kid, i love her t pieces, as annoying as she is. and Harley, ooooo i hate his eyes!! not really im just so jealouse hes got hazel eyes kinda like dad, *pouts* brown with green around the iris, only my dads eyes shift between gray and faded light blue. with the tinyest tiny of green somewhere...

my dads everything to me. i love him so much....its easy to come to tears knowing that hes there and i am here....i miss my daddy so much.

ahem....wow how'd i get so off topic O3O oh well....my history is shiros history. :3 only shes much better loooking then i am XD same with Shame.....huh funny....

heres a bit of info on her

Name: Shiro
Age: 18 yrs old
Gender: female
Hair colour: dark brown
Eye colour: dark brown
Orinatation: Bisexual / Pansexual
Status: Single
History: NA
Bio: ME DUH
Crush(s): S.K, J.K, R.W, J.D,
Love(s): ---
family: Son; Nored, Mate; Buddy, Father: Vincent, Mother: Carla, Sister: Lilianna, Brother: Harley, 10+ aunts, 10+uncles, 10+cosuins, yeah i have a big family. and i dont know more then half
Song(s):

Forgiven- Skillet [link] , (this song really relates to us.)

Forgive me now, 'cause I,
Have been unfaithful;
Don't ask me why, 'cause I don't know;
So many times I've tried,
But was unable;
This heart belongs to You alone...

Now I'm in our secret place,
Alone in Your embrace,
Where all my wrongs have been erased;
You have forgiven,
All the promises and lies,
All the times I compromised,
All the times You were denied,
You have forgiven...

Forgive me, I'm ashamed,
I've loved another;
I can't explain, 'cause I don't know;
No one can take Your place,
And there is no other,
Forever Yours and Yours alone...

Now I'm in our secret place,
Alone in Your embrace,
Where all my wrongs have been erased;
You have forgiven,
All the promises and lies,
All the times I compromised,
All the times You were denied,
You have forgiven...

I get down on my knees,
Feel Your love wash over me,
There will never be another;
You're the only One forever,
And You know I'm Yours alone...

I'm in our secret place,
Alone in Your embrace,
Where all my wrongs have been erased;
You have forgiven,
All the promises and lies,
All the times I compromised,
All the times You were denied,
You have forgiven...

You have forgiven...
Forgiven...
(Forgiven)
Forgiven...
(Forgiven)
Forgiven...
(Forgiven)
Forgiven...
(Forgiven)

SKILLET - SOMETIMES [link]

Sometimes, when I lie,
I know you're on to me;
Sometimes, I don't mind,
How hateful that I can be;
Sometimes, I don't try,
To make you happy;
I don't know why I do,
The things I do to you, but...

Sometimes, I don't wanna be better;
Sometimes, I can't be put back together;
Sometimes, I find it hard to believe;
There's someone else who could be,
Just as messed up as me!

Sometimes, don't deny,
That everything is wrong;
Sometimes, rather die,
Than to admit it's my fault;
Sometimes, when you cry,
I just don't care at all;
I don't know why I do,
The things I do to you, but...

Sometimes, I don't wanna be better;
Sometimes, I can't be put back together;
Sometimes, I find it hard to believe;
There's someone else who could be,
Just as messed up as me!

I want someone to hurt,
Like the way I hurt;
It's sick, but it makes me feel better...

Sometimes, I can't hide,
The demons that I face;
Sometimes, don't deny,
I'm sometimes sinner, sometimes saint;

Sometimes, I don't wanna be better;
(Everything is wrong forever!)
Sometimes, I can't be put back together;
(Sometimes, it's gone forever!)
Sometimes, I find it hard to believe;
There's someone else who could be,
Just as messed up as me!

Just as messed up as me!

i didnt mean to make it look so pink but well.....the screens are differe so i showed up much darker. oh well XD

Shiro, Art ~Katashi-Okenuth